Blessed beyond measure, sometimes we feel like we go through so much and actually have thoughts that run through our minds. They may sound like this:
“Will I ever be ok?”
“Is God even seeing all this?”
“There’s others that have gone through more than you, you’re fine.”
I have to admit that has been me, but not just that thought but so many more that I couldn’t stay focused.  Even when I tried so hard and would get knocked down over and over again and each time it seemed harder than the last time to get up. Maybe you feel, have felt you had thoughts like that too. Maybe you feel so torn and broken  that you absolutely feel things just can’t change, things will always be bad, you will always hurt. But let me tell you what; I’ve been in exactly that spot and I thought those same thoughts. I thought that all the hurt and all the pain I was going through, I deserved to have it and if anything good would have happened it would be short lived because why would things be better.
BUT GOD!
I sit here in the verge of tears realizing that God is so good then even when I think about how broken I felt last year this time it was all going according to his plan. I could not sit here and encourage you to let your guard down and let God do what he’s going to do. I’m writing to tell you, you have a choice, you get to decide how you’re going to handle things. You don’t have to sit alone in the dark. You don’t have to push everyone away.  You don’t have to believe the lies of the enemy. That is what the enemy is counting on. He’s counting on you to believe him, keep believing him and falling further and further down. The enemy will fill you with lies that you are and have been all alone.
HES A LIAR!
I wasnt ever alone and I write to say you weren’t and aren’t either. Every song that played at just the right time that made all the negative thoughts that played or plays over and over in your mind go away and gave you peace….was and is God! Every person that reached out at just the right time that stopped you from doing things that were or aren’t lined up with a God’s plan for you was and is God!
Every night you actually were and are able to just have the most peaceful sleep when everything around you seemed or seems to be falling apart was and is God!

I believe if you’re reading this, its because God wanted you to see, that you are not alone and that he loves you so much. I am blessed beyond measure and when you allow God to do what he’s always had planned to do in your life you will see it. What I see now is I am blessed beyond measure. I have a God that never left me, a God that used and uses people and even people that I never thought I’d be around to remind me that I am loved and God is using me even when I thought I would never be enough.  God has and is showing me I always was and still am more than enough, and he thought of me even before I was born.
Jeremiah 1:5 NLT – “I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.”
And you are too!
I dont think I couldn’t have said this last year but I can today is:

When life is great, I am blessed!!
When life is hard, I am blessed!!
My God is so good to me, even when I fall short and am undeserving! He still says,You are mine! and “I AM with you always!
I LOVE ❤️ YOU DAUGHTER!
I am blessed beyond measure because I can’t even count high enough to describe how blessed I am. I encourage you to get your focus back on God and stop fighting him, so you can see you are blessed beyond measure too!

Remember: As you find yourself Waiting in the Midst – God is there!